Joshua 1:9 (New International Version)

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Not that of a holiday after all...

A lot of things are on my mind currently. Mostly troubles. Its as if its not a holiday.

I pray for favour. Favour from my Final Year Project supervisor. Things are not going well at this moment of time. And I have a feeling that he is bias against us. (My team and I) It was like this. A few weeks ago, we rushed to complete our progress report, as some of you may know. The deadline of the report is on Friday, so we decided to complete at least 80% of the report by Wednesday so that our supervisor can have a check.

During the check, he gave comments like It's good....It's okay.....etc. Which was really encouraging, and we really felt blessed then. Asking him whether we should let him check the completed version on Thursday, he said we don't have to, we can pass it up to him on Friday straight away. And we did just that.

Just checked the results of the progress report. And we only got 59%....out of 100. Wow...seriously dejecting stuff. The purpose we let him check our work, is so that we will not obtain these kinds of marks. And this "say 1 thing, do anything" stuff, has been happening. So depressing.

Oh Lord, please grant us favour from our supervisor.

And now my teammates are not here with me. I am really fearful. Fearful that something I am about to do, or not do, will cost me even more than it already has. Wherever I go, the grips of intimidation grabs hold of my heart, reminding me of my troubles. Things which are enjoyable, does not seem to appeal anymore. Paranoia sinks in, like mercury, in an already dark and murky water. Everything around me seems to shift to negativity, forming a prison without me releasing it.

This is when I need to open my ears, attune my senses to listen. Listen to the One who created me. Listen to the One who is in control. Yes, You are in control of everything.

Psalm 23:3-6 (New International Version)

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

Show me the way. Help me listen. Grant me favour. I will praise You forever.

Gogo.

I shall learn from Yong, posting up my Fantasy team. Enthusiastic.

Go, team, gogo. Made a drastic change this week which required my total points to be deducted by 8. But nevermind, fortune favors those who has balls. =)

Randoms

Just had my 2nd last paper earlier today. It went well. All glory to God really. There were times (yea, more than once) that my mind just went blank on me during the paper but once I prayed for calmness, the clarity of thought just came into my mind, and I managed to proceed. Thank You God!

Final paper: Advanced Dynamics.

MEC4428 : Advanced Dynamics

Synopsis

Instruction on advanced topics in dynamics, incorporating electromagnetics via D'Lambert's principle, Hamilton's equations and the virtual power (Jourdain/Kain) method. Focus on kinematics and dynamics of robotic structures and magnetoelectromechanical devices (motors, speakers, transducers, vibration sensors etc). Consideration of the inevitable and critical consequences of nonlinearities in dynamics response, including limit cycles and Poincare maps and flows. Reinforcement of concepts using computer analysis.

Objectives

Students are expected to gain the ability to model the dynamics of systems incorporating mechanic, electrical, magnetic and other forma of energy storage and interaction, with consideration of the consequences of nonlinear behaviour. Computational work will provide the student with a reinforced understanding of advanced dynamics.

Personal experience/What I have learned: None of the above.

Seriously, this subject is nuts. I learned nothing what-so-ever. Currently trying to do, or rather copying tute solutions, to learn from it. God, I need You!!!

Once the papers are done, back to play/final year project. Can't wait for Wrath of the Lich King.


I can only get my copy on Friday tho. And I stumbled upon this amazing leveling guide.

Jame's WoTLK Leveling Guide

Really good stuff there.

Although I am about to have the hardest paper in my entire uni life this coming wednesday, I feel free....and lazy. -__-

I will try at least to complete one tutorial before I go to bed. Which I probably can't as well, because I took a 6 hour "nap" just now. Damn it.

Good stuff.

Just read Our Daily Bread.

According to Psalms 103:12,

as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

Do you realize the meaning of this verse? East is always the opposite of West, and they will not meet....forever. So imagine as far as the east is from the west is an infinite distance. And this is how far God has removed our sins from us. After we repent, we can rest assure that they are gone from our lives forever.

Another scripture which stuns me is this: Isaiah 43:25,

"I,, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake,
and remembers your sins no more."

Wow. Blots out means to obliterate or disregard a painful memory of thought. Each time we sinned, we break God's heart. But when we repent of our sins, God is willing to wipe it all clean, to disregard the fact that we broke His heart before, and remembers our sins no more. He, the One who created us and our judge, chooses to remember our sins no more.

Another verse I stumbled upon is this: Isaiah 38:17

Surely it was for....
....you have put all my sins behind your back.

Image from: http://www.eternalvisiondesign.com/misc/jesusbackpiece.jpg

Jesus fulfilled this prophecy of Isaiah's before His crucifixion. Those lashes they did on His back, with sharp spikey metal balls, represents the sins which God has put on Jesus' back. By this, He has taken and died for all our sins. Past or future. We just need to repent of it and receive His forgiveness.

Good stuff. And it ended with this phrase.

We invite defeat when we remember what we should forget.

So, whatever hinders you in the past, whether its a sin or a painful memory, just repent of it and surrender them to God. He will blot it out.

=)

Boringz

Normally, I play more games during exam time.

This time, I decided to let my WoW account go expire and top it up again after my last paper.

Hence, this amazing amount of boredom. Its so boring now...

...I keep refreshing my facebook homepage.
...I started Dota again and play against AI. Not to mentioned feeding them sometimes.
...I actually blogged.
...I sleep more.
...I went back to cooking normal meals.
...I am feeling tired at 12.30am.

BAH! Can't wait for this crap to be over.

Exam times

Hmm, come to think of it...exam times are actually kinda good for me...I always learn to depend more on God.

First paper was okay, much better than expected, see the last post, then you will understand. Now im facing another huddle, Advanced Dynamics.

Don't know why I chose to do that subject in the first place. I can say its by far the hardest subject I have. Even after the first lecture already Im lost. Now just trying to do whatever is possible to drag myself through this paper.

Didn't really eat well during exam times. Lots of instant noodles, fried chicken, fast foods were consumed during these few weeks. Have to eat well once the exams are over.

Sometimes, meals are skipped. (typical student habit I guess) But somehow, "things" are still coming out. I have an amazing bowel. Thank God. I don't need much fibers too. =P

Kk, back to studies. All the best to everyone.

Through You

Im not gonna live by what I see,
Im not gonna live by what I feel,

Deep down I, know that You're here with me,
And I know that, You can do anything...

Through You, I can do anything,
I can do all things.
Coz its You who gives me strength,
Nothing is impossible.

Through You, blind eyes are opened,
Strongholds are broken,
Im living by faith,
Nothing is impossible!

I believe, I believe,
I believe, I believe, in You.