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Monday, July 21, 2008

Betrayal...

Ever felt being betrayed by anyone? I am sure you did. Well, this time, there are 3 of them.

I respected them.

I befriended them.

I planned to visit them end of this year.

I felt blessed with them.

I had fun with them.

I supported them.

Now it is all gone. Wiped. I wish them luck and for them to do such a thing, I wish them happiness.
I guess for my part, what has happened has happened. Now its just how am I handling them, and moving on with my life.
Most people will lose their ability to trust sometime right....now.

But I will continue to choose to trust.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Zzzz

Sien, I officially hate Australia even more.

The education system here is damn lame. They don't allow me to underload my subjects this semester, only next semester can, and I don't see the reason why it is not allowed.

My case is like this. Fourth year carries the highest weightage for my honours. And currently this semester, I have to take three 4th year semester 2 subjects and one of them is freaking tough. So since I can afford to underload a subject, I decided to drop this hard subject and take 4 relatively easier subjects next semester. But what the heck, it can't be done that easily. For reasons I do not know why. And the stupid admin person in charged wasn't even "your typical friendly Aussie". LAME!

I wish I am at Malaysia studying now. Although things are rather politically chaotic, I still prefer it than the stupid system in Australia.

Other things I hate about Australia:

- Shops closing early
- The weather
- Admin systems in various departments
- Some food
- Some people

Damn it. God give me grace. Bring me through this.

p/s: The internet in Australia is SHIT.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Testimonies after testimonies

Just had my Urban Life today. We combined with Chloe's UL since during the holidays, our UL shrunked since some of the people went back for holiday. We had a testimony session, and hearing other people's testimony, I felt very touched by the miracles of God.

One of the testimonies being shared is one experienced by the Mechanical Engineering people aka my gang. Alot has happened this week. Mainly is regarding the results and getting a suitable Final Year Project title and supervisor. I have been avoiding facing this problem (FYP) since the start of the holidays. But just on Sunday morning, I was struck (presumably the power of God) with the thought of it. I woke up right away, checked for the topics available and who are the supervisors immediately. And I could not sleep till the morning. The topics available were very few and non-interesting. Moreover, the supervisors in-charge, lets say we didn't hear good remarks about them. So I was worried. (its a human nature) That Sunday when I went to church, I went with expectation that God will provide and care for my needs. On Monday, the guys and I went to Uni to search for a better option. We sent emails to some of the lecturers (the ones we heard good remarks about), asking them whether they have any titles available for us which are not published on the uni website.

True enough, God provided. Yong Hsin's supervisor, whom he praised, presented us with 3 titles! And he even allowed group work for all of them! WOW! How great is our God!! There were 6 of us and we can each have a partner for the Final Year Project! Things looked much brighter then. But then the downside was we didn't like the topics at all. It was too hard to understand and we had to start many things from scratch, meaning we had to learn a new computer language, learn alot about non-Newtonian fluids and Finite Element Analysis. So we decided to come on the next day to ask the other lecturers which weren't available during that Monday. We believed and hoped that a more suitable project will appear for us.

During the next morning, I woke up late. None of my friends woke me up. And they are already at Uni asking the different lecturers. I felt betrayed that time. The first thing I did after that was taking up my book (Drawing Near by John Bevere) and started reading. Suddenly, my roommate came back, saying that he found a supervisor which the topic he had interest in. Then my heart was like "How about me, God?"

I called Kuo Hao and Jit Tee as they were still at the uni, contemplating which subject they were choosing. They managed to ask another 2 good supervisors and both of them have an individual title they have to offer. So there and then, I made up my mind, going to uni and ask one of the lecturers to become supervisor. I made up my mind, no more considering what my friends are thinking. I was thinking that I have to be selfish on this matter for once. I went there, talked to one of the lecturers, and pretty much set on that particular title, even though the topic was quite hard to understand. To cut the long story short, KH and JT got their group work project, I was going to decide that I choose mine, and Brandon is going to meet the other lecturer which is offering the individual project.

So when KH told that lecturer that he is giving his spot (individual project) to Brandon, the lecturer suddenly pulled back! Saying that he will not offer that project anymore, claiming that he does not have time. But just moments ago, he was very keen on offering that project to KH! And just on that Sunday when I could not sleep, I was considering that I want this lecturer to be my supervisor! But on my way to Uni that morning, I just felt a strong feeling that I should go to the one I went. (haha...kinda confusing here)

So Brandon was stunned and crushed. Suddenly he felt like the whole world came down. I can understand and relate how he felt. I would feel the same way too. Suddenly, he felt like hope just disappears. We were there, sitting with him, helping him considering his leftover options, but in the same time (I had to admit this) thanking God that it didn't happen to us (at least that was what I felt). As we were thinking, suddenly a lecturer came down from upstairs. Its one of KH's lecturers last semester. (which is a bad lecturer, or at least he is known to be) Thinking maybe he have some topics to offer, KH asked him.

"Sir, do you offer any Final Year Project for next semester?"
"Got."
"Do you have like a few topics?"
"Got."

WOW! God in action again! That lecturer just said got got got got....hahaha.

"Come to my office and I will explain to you what is it about"

So off we went. But I was skeptical about this lecturer and since I was pretty much set on my own project, I decided not to go in his office to listen. KH asked me to listen but I was like thinking, If I go in, and am interested, I don't want to be in the dilemma anymore, thinking of which topic to take.

Then suddenly came out *not even 30 seconds after he went in*

"Eh, he said he want 1 more person, he wants it to be a group work"

WOW! Another miracle! FYPs normally prefer individual work and not group work. Even the other lecturers we asked for group work only they reluctantly allow that option. So after thinking, we all went in and listen.

To cut the long story short, again. We finally chose that lecturer. Not just us, even Wei Lun and Ling Tu chose that lecturer, doing another project of his. And my group not just consists of Brandon and I, we also included Sophie (another friend which just transfered from Malaysia for next semester) into the group and he allowed it. That lecturer was very keen, enthusiastic and willing to teach us what our project is all about. He even say we can call him anytime we have a problem, contrary to the other lecturers which either say they are going to be very busy or only can visit them during consultation hours.

God really does miracles. Thank God.

Wow that was a long one. But wait, I have another.

Believing that God will provide really comes true. It happened to me even in WoW (World of Warcraft). Seriously. No joke. Just today, I went to ZA with my group of supportive friends. I went with a expecting heart, that God will drop some of the loots I was desperately needing. And true enough, God really came true. Jungle Stompers and Bulwark of the Amani Empire dropped. I really relied on Him during these few days in everything I do. That is why I took off the WoW loot section as all the drops are God given. =)

But what really touched my heart is what my Guild Leader said to me. For the next semester, I am going to Main Tank for group 2. And Main Tank need to spend alot of time in raid and stuffs. I was worried about my time management and I was particular worried about trying to serve God and attend raid each weekend. But I have decided to take a stand, putting God first. If there are events which I am involved in or want to be involved in, I will put God over WoW. And the first test is this coming Saturday, the raid is going to SSC but I have decided to help out in the Colingwood Clean up, where our church will impact the local community. So thinking it was wise to let them know I am not going for raid, I told my leader.

"Erm I heard this saturday you all going SSC ar? I cant come la...i need to help my church do something"

and his reply is just amazing. At least to me.

"do God's work is a good thing. don't be like me"

WOW!!! God really provides for all my worries and problems!! Saying that, the leader effectively give me the green light, saying that if I can't attend raid because of church, it's ok. God, You are really in control of everything.

But I can sense that my leader is a Christian, maybe he has backslided but still a Christian. I shall talk to him about God one day and win him back.

As I said, I believe there's a ministry in WoW. Most of the people in there are almost, if not, impossible to reach for Christ. It is like winning souls in my workplace. Yea...playing WoW sometimes or most of the time, is not playing, is more like working, especially for my case. I always tell Brandon they all I have to work (when there's raid)

K then. That's all for this post. I know its a long one and its been a long time since I ever posted a long one. And I think this post is the longest one so far. I hope you enjoyed the testimonies and I hope God will personally give you many testimonies to share. Believe and have faith in God and it shall come to pass. Take care and God bless.

Oh ya! Another testimony! -__- lol

Its about my results. Urban Life today was mainly hit by the fact results are out during the time we were having Urban Life. Everyone was worried and God gave us revelations. I thank God that He gave me a revelation to share with everyone. During that time, my heart beat really fast and I really wanted to share what God has put in my heart.

He told me.

"The time when results are out, is a trial by itself. Although the exams has already been done, results of the exams are also a form of test. It is a spiritual test. It tests us whether, in situations where we do not get the results we were hoping for, do you still praise God for it? Will you become bitter or do you still praise God your results? Therefore do not just pray that you will get good results, more importantly pray that God's will be done in your life as well."

WOW. That was powerful. And I am very satisfied with my results.


Although its not the best in class or anything. I shall Praise God for it. Particularly since I was almost playing for the whole semester. =P

To God be the glory! =)

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Help...

I am lazy. Lazy to blog. Lazy to do anything.
Things are happening so fast.

Jason and Vijay went back to Malaysia for good.
Now my somewhat new friend, Ah Kit, which is also my neighbor and my guild and raiding mate, which I just brought him to church for the past few weeks and decided to see him to grow even more in the Lord, is also going back to Msia for good soon. T.T
Just had my own cooked meal after like 2 weeks of eating random stuffs, eat out, bread, noodle, etc. =.=
Sleeping time messed up.
Enrollment hasn't been settled yet.
Tuition fees and Final Year Project too.
My hair irritates me but I'm...*yea you guessed it* still too lazy to do anything about that.

Classes starts again in about less than 2 weeks and I have to get back to my normal habits.

I guess this is what you call pure "rotting".